Work in Progress - Vanessa
November 26
11:45 a.m.
I know the answer. On some days, the other girl is me at the beginning of the year, or Shade, or she's a girl in class, any girl Beast smiled at. The gossip about her and Beast went around all summer. And some of our friends came back to find out what happened.
Friends I used to know visited. I wonder if there will ever be a time when gatherings of people don't remind me of something tragic. I did not cry, even when I thought about the model girlfriend and almost asked one of my friends, "Is she real?"
I hear about all their better places, but I heard before, in Waterpark Mom's conversations with people. It is still a shock.
"Why should you want to return," I asked (from the big university art school, the trip to the foreign land)? I left out the part about how I was doing. How to describe the exits in books and how Beast is alive there. What would I say, "I crashed a party in my reader, and a ghost drove me home?"
11:45 a.m.
I know the answer. On some days, the other girl is me at the beginning of the year, or Shade, or she's a girl in class, any girl Beast smiled at. The gossip about her and Beast went around all summer. And some of our friends came back to find out what happened.
Friends I used to know visited. I wonder if there will ever be a time when gatherings of people don't remind me of something tragic. I did not cry, even when I thought about the model girlfriend and almost asked one of my friends, "Is she real?"
I hear about all their better places, but I heard before, in Waterpark Mom's conversations with people. It is still a shock.
"Why should you want to return," I asked (from the big university art school, the trip to the foreign land)? I left out the part about how I was doing. How to describe the exits in books and how Beast is alive there. What would I say, "I crashed a party in my reader, and a ghost drove me home?"
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