Excerpts From The Avocado Grove Emily - Thinking About Thanksgiving

Outer Layers

The girls in front of me in the lunch line debate the nutritional merits of a brownie versus an Oreo in terms of fat grams.  On my tray I have both the brownie and the Oreo along with a cheeseburger and fries.

 

“Shut up about fat grams,” I say.   I almost get into things with Brownie and Oreo.  But “Excuse me, ladies,” intervenes.   He has the kind of skin that tans dark in the sun, his hair is short, almost black, and though I try not to notice, he has these teen idol brown eyes. 

I look down at my tray and reconsider all of my food, especially the cookies.  If I could, I’d find a way to disappear from the line and melt into the pea soup cafeteria walls, the posters from pizza and burger restaurants and the clubs at school.  Not one of those posters tells me anything about how to speak to this boy.   He talks first and I don’t hear Brownie and Oreo after that.

“You into Rush?” He asks.

I glance up from the desserts long enough to see he smiles at me and not in the leering predatory way some boys do.  But he smiles like someone I would like to know.  “They’re awesome,” I say.  Rush’s music filters through headphones that dangle from his neck.  I think I hear the word, “Subdivisions.”  I know the song.

I smile up at him and nod in time with the beat.  He has a clean and casual way.  His shirts look too pressed, too neat as if his mom and dad send laundry to the dry cleaners.  He is unusually confident too, but there’s no meanness like some boys wear, as if they have this outer shell, a coating of artificial toughness.  This guy has none of that.  He is perfect and belongs in one of those supermarket commercials around the holidays, where all the relatives gather around a long dining table with a ton of presents and a turkey as big as a whale and everyone is bubbling over.  He smiles carefree without it being annoying.

The boy slides his headphones in my ears.